Thursday, September 30, 2010
I feel somewhat wary sharing this, but I know the facts will help all of you prayer warriors to pray that much more intensely. Anya told us that she actually almost succeeded in hanging herself not too long ago. What saved her? Her friend Katya serendipitously coming by in the middle of the night. Anya was unconscious and Katya called the police. Anya said she had the rope marks on her neck for weeks and weeks. She was taken to the hospital, but they let her out the next day. She promised Katya that she would do her best to not do it again, but now it seems Anya thinks this end is inevitable.
When we came here I told her I hoped to be hearing from someone in our govt very soon. It was true, and I needed to give her something to hold on to. Well, now that we are here going on 3 weeks, and no news from the US, she is convinced that it is never going to happen. She just wants to enjoy every minute she has with us "until we have to go". I knew her openness was too good to be true. Her openness is her way of connecting with us in what she thinks are the last few months of her life.
I cannot tell you how deep in woe I am, because there are no words for it. I am sick with sorrow. Tonight the girls are in their old neighborhood (where they were born) and I am here, alone, with time to grieve and pray.
If I weren't living this, I would not believe it.
Posted by Keri at 9:03 AM