‘What does love look like? It has the hands to help others. It has the feet to hasten to the poor and needy. It has eyes to see misery and want. It has the ears to hear the sighs and sorrows of men …… That is what love looks like.’ - St. Augustine

Thursday, December 02, 2010

The Ups and Downs of Post-Travel Delirium

I am so completely overjoyed and happy right now I feel like my heart will burst! I know, I know, after the last few posts that is quite the jump. But God is so good and so loving and so faithful, there is really nothing to be sad about. I am processing the past few months, and I am just so grateful, I cannot even sit still. I have been jumping around my house singing and praying. Here are just a few reasons why:

1. I am going to be a mom again. Total gift from God -- unexpected and overly wonderful. I am more happy than I can possibly express in words.I love D more than I thought possible. I ADORE HIM!

2. I am in contact with the family that is hosting Dasha this month, and it seems like the PERFECT match for her! I am so grateful that God has moved mountains to let her come again, I  am just crying like a baby. Dasha deserves EVERY good thing, and she is getting it!

3.I have endless people who love me on both sides of the world, and instead of feeling torn, I feel love coming at me from all directions. I am realizing I can go back there any time I want...it just takes committing to it. I need to work and work to raise more funds, and then I can go back!

4. I am learning so much these days, I feel like God is giving me a doctorate education in the most important lifeskills, and boy am I grateful. I could not have conceived of the wisdom that is being shared with me as of late. I am a lucky, lucky girl. One of the greatest lessons God is teaching me is of his incredible faithfulness. If you are open to his leading, HE LEADS!

Anyway, I need to go jump around some more. I started on Daniel's adoption and I just feel so grateful that I get to be his mom. God chose ME to be HIS mom!!!

I got an email from Nadezhda today, saying that D is crying alot because he misses me. As sad as that is to hear, it's a good thing. It means the connection I felt was not one-sided. he feels it too. I promised I will call him as often as possible, and I mean it. In fact, it's time to go call him now:)  Bye!


  1. It's a good crazy - the best, in fact. Embrace it joyfully.

  2. I am rejoicing right along with you Kari and today would be a good day to check out my blog
    because it is special to me. Also I wish you would go to youtube.com and just type in "He's been faithful" and you will be able to hear a lady from the Brooklyn Tabernacle Choir sing that song that was written by Carol Cymbala, wife of the pastor. She wrote it when she was diagnosed with cancer and at the same time one of her children was on drugs but she wanted to honor God by writing how He has been faithful to her. The song is even more powerful when you know the background.

  3. I am rejoicing with you, Keri! I knew this trip was going to be big - and decisive - for you. And was it ever! Not in ways I could have predicted, though! I am so happy for you and so happy for Daniel and Nastia - and even Anya who is blessed beyond measure to have someone like you in her life even if the result is not what you thought. I'm so sure that your presence in her life has given her advantages that most of her peers can only dream about. Anyway, I can feel your joy from here and I'm so happy you made that choice to go. You're a world-changer, Keri!

  4. You know all to well that until that dossier is completed and sent, you are no where. Knock it out and let the process begin! Are they going to count your last visit as visit one? Where are the children being hosted? Is that the Boston area? Jumping with you!

  5. What a blessing to read your post this morning. God has transformed your broken heart into a joyful one!!
    "Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus." 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18

    Have a great day!

  6. You all deserve all the joy that life and love can bring.
    Jo Ann Silva

  7. Hi Kari!

    I find your blog so inspirational and I would love to help in any way I can. Are there things I can send with you for the children on your trip in February? Things I can send the children in the mean time? Please contact me. ashley (dot) tobie @ gmail.com.


  8. Oh, you make me smile. I'm glad you are getting your happy back.

  9. And you KNOW you are going back to Russia! You HAVE to go! I am so envious of you.

  10. I cannot thank you enough for sharing this wonderful news!


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