‘What does love look like? It has the hands to help others. It has the feet to hasten to the poor and needy. It has eyes to see misery and want. It has the ears to hear the sighs and sorrows of men …… That is what love looks like.’ - St. Augustine

Monday, April 20, 2009


Ok, cravings are trying to have their way with me. And boy, they are powerful! but I'm not letting them win. I was exhausted by 2pm so I fell asleep...for four and a half hours! Yikes. I dreamt of working in a fast food restaurant..lol. I awoke to continued cravings. Here is what my mind is begging me to eat: mint chocolate chip ice cream, coffee ice cream, chocolate ice cream, spaghetti and meatballs, a roast beef sandwich with mayo & sauce, a box of oreos, chips, french fries, a turkey dinner with all the extras, a whole coffee cake, beef stew....I could go on.

So you see, my mind is working double-time on these cravings, but actually announcing to the world that I am doing this lifestyle change is helping me to stay on task. I don't want to be a hypocrite!

I was unable to drink the entire 64 ounces of the weird green juice, but I managed half of it. I wasn't actually hungry all day. The cravings were all for comfort food, bc I'm scared. But there were no actually hunger pains of feelings of hunger.

I had moments of huge anxiety, feeling like there is no way I can do this, but I just kept talking to that part of myself and reminding her that this HAD to be done if I wanted to live a long life and be there for my daughter.

Tomorrow morning at 7:30am I head back to the nutritionist and do all kinds of extra things like an infrared sauna, ionic foot bath ( to stimulate the lymph system), a colonic and then some training in food prep. Hope I don't collapse on the ride home..lol! It's an hour away.

Nastia is having a field day trying to get me to fail. not fun. I know its because she doesnt like change of any kind, but it's hard to have her trying so hard to get me to eat junk. Hopefully this need of hers will pass. I'll keep you posted.


  1. Your post was making me hungry! Have a safe and good trip to the nutritionist tomorrow!

  2. Is there no "half-way"? Like healthy but normal food?

    I also need to eat a better diet. My mom is 87 and as vigorous - maybe more so - than I am. She eats nice food (some of those things you mentioned)...she does stay away from fats, too much salt and cholesterol, but not in a crazy way. She eats a well-balanced diet, but very, very small portions. And she exercises daily...just walking and stretching.

    I will not drink green juice anytime soon, but I am trying to eat more fruit (which is hard because the appetizing fruit, like berries, are so expensive.) I am also thinking "TV Dinner". I read that we ought to think of a TV dinner tray when we select our portions. That is the worst thing that has happened to the American diet - supersizing. Really. I guess there are all sorts of political reasons.

    Well, good luck. I'm sure that feeling rotten has helped you get serious! I'll pray for your continuing zeal!

  3. Thanks guys. I appreciate the support. This is one tough lifestyle change.


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