‘What does love look like? It has the hands to help others. It has the feet to hasten to the poor and needy. It has eyes to see misery and want. It has the ears to hear the sighs and sorrows of men …… That is what love looks like.’ - St. Augustine

Monday, April 13, 2009

I'm Baaaaack......

Well, for this moment anyway. I have not set foot on this blog ( or any other) for over a month. not sure why. Not sure I want to figure out why. But I came by because a few very kind souls sent little queries checking up on us, and I wanted to ease their minds. So, to ease....

We're ok. Still alive. Still dealing with nasty health crap. Still homeschooling. Still managing to make it through each day....some with a smile, some with a really pissed-off " what-the-hell-is going-on?" look. Either way, I count it a victory to still be here. Life is hard, after all. Don't anyone try and tell me otherwise, or I'll have to shoot you :)

Updates? I'm still waiting to hear if the law firm is getting anywhere with my suit against the nefarious peanut butter company. I'm working on a trip to Russia to help Anya find an apartment. Still working on finding a way to get her here permanently. ( I'm thinking a sneaky exit through Mongolia might be a good idea at this point.) and I've had almost five days running of very little pain, but now that I put it in writing, you know what's gonna happen....

What's on my mind right now? Losing freaking weight. SIXTY pounds, to be exact. I saw some photos taken of me over Easter and they made me want to put a gun to my head (j/k). But they did make me want to rob a bank and have my breasts and stomach lopped off.

I was already overweight to begin with, but the stress and immobility caused by this damn auto immune disease made me gain twenty more pounds. Nothing but one over-sized shirt fits me, and I refuse to buy anything in size 3x ( that's what size you need to wear if your breasts are this large...) I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired. I'm ready for a BIG change. Sorry to be a whiny you-know-what, but it's time to call a spade a spade. I think I'm done pretending to be happy so that people won't hate me or will like me or won't avoid me, or yada yada yada. I'm pissed and I need to make some changes.

Anastasia, on the other hand, couldn't be happier these days. Small favors :)

So, love to all of you and hope your life is filled with GOOD things ( like jobs and food on the table..) Oh yeah, did I mention I lost all my spring jobs? Yup. Should make travel to Russia so, umm, easy!

Warning: the above post should be read with a grain of salt. Just sayin'.


  1. Are you on prednisone? That sounds like prednisone weight gain. It's a nasty side affect my Dr. warned me about, but other Drs play it off like it's not a big side affect. IT IS. I went from 119 to over 200 lbs in five months. I have no idea how high the number got because I quit looking at the scale when it hit 200 lbs.
    Whine away. auto immune diseases SUCK SUCK SUCK.

  2. I bet Anastasia likes having you close to home. I am relieved to hear from you.

  3. So glad to see you here! I miss you!

  4. Beth Thompson7:00 PM

    Hi Keri,

    This one ain't for posting, just a note to you. I am so glad to see you back, even if just in a while.

    Are you really wanting to lose the 60 pounds? I'm working on losing 100, but I've already lost 45. I'm doing a specific program the I'd give you for free (cost me a penny) and it's very strict. You have to cook everything for yourself, but it's the healthiest I've ever eaten in my life. If you're interested, give me a call, I'll explain what I'm doing. 978-464-2875

  5. Glad to have you back!

  6. Happy to see you posted. I was concerned that it had been so long. I'm sorry you're having such a rough patch..hopfully things will lighten up soon.


  7. Glad to see you've posted again....I was worried about you. Sorry things are not going well; hopefully things will lighten up soon. Best wishes.

  8. Anonymous8:08 PM

    Glad you are posting again! Even if it to lament.

  9. Anonymous8:58 PM

    Hey Keri -
    This is "R" (your other half who wants to change/save the world as well). I posted anonymously because I wanted to validate your venting, and tell you: "YOU GO GIRL" - you do SO much for other people, and it is time to take care of you :) But, before you go lopp of your stomach and breasts - take a deep breath!!! I hate when people tell me to do that, but it does really work. Also, if you are serious about losing weight, I'd love to be your eating/exercise buddy. I, too, have huge boobs and recently spent over $200 on bras (I only bought 3), so that my boobs wouldn't kill by the end of the day. Also, I have recently gained a ton of weight (also due to medical/health related stuff, we should talk), and I want to lose it because I'd like to live a long, happy, and healthy life. So, let's get together soon and we can vent together, and rather than save others, we should save ourselves for once :) Cheers to you finally realizing that it's okay to be "selfish" (notice my scare quotes). Feel good, and thinking of you always.

  10. Im so glad that you posted, I have been wondering.

  11. Glad to hear from you too!

  12. Keri, so good to "hear" from you again. "See" from you again?! Hang in there. Praying for your recovery. jeri


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