tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-29308661.post853087861897212600..comments2023-05-14T08:06:41.594-05:00Comments on Creating My Own Little Nirvana: When Sorrows Come..Kerihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04886116438383281567noreply@blogger.comBlogger35125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-29308661.post-90446486350357172672012-03-10T20:18:28.582-05:002012-03-10T20:18:28.582-05:00Keri, so much I want to say. I can't express h...Keri, so much I want to say. I can't express how deeply I fell your pain and everyone here has written so much of what I would say to you. Remember that God's most amazing miracles can be the smallest hope during the darkest time. My prayers are with you and all the children you share your heart with. I think God greatest treaures come to those who seek happiness and safety for others. You have your place in Heaven. Rachel LockertRachel Lockertnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-29308661.post-71477394357843876542012-02-27T00:32:45.252-05:002012-02-27T00:32:45.252-05:00I've been thinking for two days now about what...I've been thinking for two days now about what I want to say but I can't really find the words. I went back to school so that I could develop ways to help adoptive parents and those involved in orphan care because it is such a taxing thing to undertake. I have actually formed some new ideas about how I want to go about doing that after reading this post. Know that you aren't alone and I think often of you and what you are going through. You are an inspiration to me and someone who I can't wait to meet in real life one day :) :::Hugs:::Melissahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16880136725741122425noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-29308661.post-92110958686319664292012-02-26T23:03:23.202-05:002012-02-26T23:03:23.202-05:00I understand where you're coming from, Keri. ...I understand where you're coming from, Keri. Life sucks. And yes, you have had MORE than your share of bad luck. I hope and pray that the trials will end soon, and that your hopes and dreams will be soon realized.<br />Also, have you considered trying an anti-depressant? It won't change the crappy things that have happened, but it may improve your coping skills. Sometimes stress can trigger a reduction in neurotransmitters, and medications can help to correct that.<br />Wishing you better days ahead.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-29308661.post-31776872617512008392012-02-25T20:04:46.763-05:002012-02-25T20:04:46.763-05:00Hugs from Maine....Hugs from Maine....matryoshkahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04159644735944561441noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-29308661.post-67842591051405019722012-02-25T18:03:38.060-05:002012-02-25T18:03:38.060-05:00God's promise: "I will never leave you, n...God's promise: "I will never leave you, nor forsake you".<br />My promise: I will continue to lift you up in prayerCathyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05658990795703046615noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-29308661.post-88088884836853463792012-02-25T12:30:46.526-05:002012-02-25T12:30:46.526-05:00::one long, squishy hug::::one long, squishy hug::Angelalahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15724001420947723633noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-29308661.post-10008371441363672982012-02-25T04:00:02.760-05:002012-02-25T04:00:02.760-05:00Keri - I am so sorry for all of your worries and g...Keri - I am so sorry for all of your worries and grief . . . only God knows why we have to go through times like this. I think Christie's words about God's refining fire are really worth remembering when you feel so low. You & your kids are in my prayers, and I truly hope things take a turn for the better soon. {{{{{Hugs}}}}}<br /><br />NancyBAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-29308661.post-32617118043861522382012-02-25T00:02:09.482-05:002012-02-25T00:02:09.482-05:00Longtime reader here. Your pain makes perfect sens...Longtime reader here. Your pain makes perfect sense to me given all that is on your plate, and it sounds like you have found the best way to deal with it: on your knees. We all go through these dark times - some of us more than others. I'm quite a bit older than you, and I can tell you that prayer has always gotten me through those really tough times. <br /><br />Also your willingness to talk about it is helpful to many, I am sure. And as I sense that is part of why you share, I thought I'd mention it. I'm not Catholic, but I admire your devotion. This old Southern boy will be sure to pray for you tonight.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-29308661.post-56374399770292434952012-02-24T23:48:57.142-05:002012-02-24T23:48:57.142-05:00Praying for you and your family, both near and far...Praying for you and your family, both near and far. <br />For several nights this week I've fallen asleep only to be awoken with the thought that I need to pray for you. So I do. And will continue to.Judyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17065893613028995685noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-29308661.post-83831322159726308852012-02-24T21:31:20.620-05:002012-02-24T21:31:20.620-05:00I want to write a reply to every single one of you...I want to write a reply to every single one of you, but I honestly don't have the energy to do so, at least not right now. Please know that your comments and suggestions and observations made my day so much more meaningful. I think this is maybe the most comments I've ever gotten to a post. Not sure, but it certainly feels like a whole lot.<br /><br />I'm still deeply sad and wanting to crawl out of my own skin, but hearing from so many of you really did help ALOT. I now see why so many bloggers post multiple reminders about leaving comments -- it is very life-affirming to receive them and know there are other souls out there, rooting for you.<br /><br />Thanks for rooting for me. I'm grateful beyond words and I'll try my best to be worthy of the caring. God bless you all. I'm heading to bed early to pray the Divine Mercy CHaplet. If you don't know it, listen to it on youtube, where it appears in song. It's beautiful. <br /><br />'The Lord bless you and keep you; <br />The Lord make His face shine upon you, <br />And be gracious to you; <br />The Lord lift up His countenance upon you, <br />And give you peace.' ( Numbers 6:24-26)Kerihttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04886116438383281567noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-29308661.post-80701061627910249552012-02-24T19:36:52.338-05:002012-02-24T19:36:52.338-05:00Hi kari I always read your blog but never leave ...Hi kari I always read your blog but never leave any comments. I live in Ct not too far from you and at this point I feel like getting in my car and driving to you and giving you the biggest hug. I wish I had answers for your pain but I don't... I just pray that some how you find the strength to heal your soul and your heart.Maggie and Randyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03617646306507603807noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-29308661.post-21369178418520683492012-02-24T17:20:43.189-05:002012-02-24T17:20:43.189-05:00So sorry! I wrote the wrong info. What I experienc...So sorry! I wrote the wrong info. What I experience is called laryngospasm. I remembered it wrong, but I went and looked it up again. So sorry. I've heard of esophgeal spasms and that it feels like youre having a heart attack. That must be terribly scary. do all the research you can online and make sure your doctor takes it seriously. This is the info on what I experience. Pretty scary to not be able to breathe, but what you have is scarier. I'm so sorry you have to deal with it!<br /><br />http://www.laryngospasm.org/LaryngospasmNetwork/Welcome.htmlKerihttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04886116438383281567noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-29308661.post-17814343884252955052012-02-24T17:11:03.866-05:002012-02-24T17:11:03.866-05:00Your the first person I met that suffers from esop...Your the first person I met that suffers from esophogial spasms like I do. I just did a google search on it and ended up here. I first thought I had really bad asthma, but the last time it happened was so scary because it wouldnt stop and I ended up passing out and woke up in the ER. What do you do to keep them from happening to you? the ER doctor didnt help. He said you just have to learn to live with it..easy for him to say. I dred it happening again. how long have you had it? mine started a year ago when I woke up in the night and couldnt breathe. I was sure i was dieing and i went to cll 911 but it stopped before i dialed. its so scary i just dont want it to happen it again. its only happened 4times to me but that is enogh.if you have any advice i hope youl post it here. i want to do keep it from happening again. your a very good writer by the way. i'm sorry your having a bad time.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-29308661.post-27545967457257827092012-02-24T17:08:37.532-05:002012-02-24T17:08:37.532-05:00The reality that sometimes life sucks....pure and ...The reality that sometimes life sucks....pure and simple.You have every right to feel as you do and be really pissed off. You are surely intited to feel betrayed,angry,depressed,and completely defeated BUT before you go to sleep at night if you can find a little place in your brain to remember and focus on one really good thing that has happened as a direct result of your efforts you can give yourself permission to feel a little okay. You know that Katya and her son would not be in a better position if you had not posted her picture and I had not been touched by her story. I am only one of countless people who you have been a directly responsible for sharing some goodness with. I am not suggesting that this will turn your life around but whenever the thoughts of all that you have not done or cannot due or wish you could do sneak into your brain just remember the silent wonders that you have been a part of.<br />Stay sane my friend that is all we can do some days<br />Your friend Ann ( the realist)Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-29308661.post-55786210425028900302012-02-24T15:42:36.583-05:002012-02-24T15:42:36.583-05:00I already posted before... but another thought cam...I already posted before... but another thought came to me. You mentioned still being out of work, and I know one of your passions is your work with teaching shakespeare(I think thats what you teach!)... Have you considered applying for a temporary job at a little store or something? Just until you get more jobs that you love to do? You could being a little coffee shop employee! I was just thinking that maybe to get some of that stress off your shoulders would do some good. And I am NOT saying that you shouldn't have work that you love, like the work you usually do.... But just saying that a temporary "un fun" job may help with finances and stress relief.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-29308661.post-73978697750899832052012-02-24T15:31:32.008-05:002012-02-24T15:31:32.008-05:00Hi Keri. All I can say is that I want to give you ...Hi Keri. All I can say is that I want to give you a big big hug! I know it doesn't help, but I hurt when I read your posts because you of all people don't deserve this. But we don't know why bad things happen to good people... I hope and pray that one day you will be united with Anya and Daniel...and possibly more children! :o) But for now, I pray that you have peace that God is watching over them, and you, and Nastia.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-29308661.post-85226801060232159942012-02-24T15:06:02.757-05:002012-02-24T15:06:02.757-05:00thank you so very much for your kind words.thank you so very much for your kind words.Kerihttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04886116438383281567noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-29308661.post-30140774034205040562012-02-24T15:00:01.667-05:002012-02-24T15:00:01.667-05:00HI Keri. I haven't met you...yet, but when I d...HI Keri. I haven't met you...yet, but when I do I am just going to hug you so hard.Kelleyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12436940857518345012noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-29308661.post-69240247509506389902012-02-24T14:36:35.546-05:002012-02-24T14:36:35.546-05:00'Thinking of you ... 'Glad you posted a re...'Thinking of you ... 'Glad you posted a reply in the comments and that you are feeling a bit better :-) I'm sorry the hurt your brothers caused. HOW in the WORLD could they imagine you to be an "embarrassment"??? They should be soooooo very PROUD of you! (((hugs)))<br />MariaG (Canada)MariaGhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09701753924118367672noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-29308661.post-43981096633061827872012-02-24T14:13:50.097-05:002012-02-24T14:13:50.097-05:00Thank you everyone. I'm so grateful for your w...Thank you everyone. I'm so grateful for your words of support. I don't know how the commenting changed, but I'm glad it did. I've been hearing complaints for over a year, I think, that most of you couldnt comment. Some of you started leaving your comments on my FB page. Anyway,I'm glad it's working again. One of the downsides of blogger, I guess.<br /><br />I am doing better this morning. Not great. Not even good, but better than the past few days. Its so hard not to hide away when we're feeling that bad. I can't tell you how much I struggled to post this recent post. I even got cold fet in the middle of th night and removed it for a few hours. But I realized I was letting the shame my family members dumped on me cloud my decision. I NEVER qestioned posting ANYTHING before. Now I suddenly felt scared to be honest. would I get another email about my being an embarrassment? Would I be reprimanded again for being too public with my thoughts? <br /><br />I dont care anymore. I just want to feel well again. I want to find a way to feel hope again.I'm grateful for all the prayers and well wishes. Truly.Kerihttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04886116438383281567noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-29308661.post-8916014420625069592012-02-24T13:57:48.864-05:002012-02-24T13:57:48.864-05:00Glad you opened up comments to us nonbloggers agai...Glad you opened up comments to us nonbloggers again. (I always tried to post but it would never let me.)<br /><br /> Anyway, just wanted to thank you for your openness. It is why I always return to your blog again and again. It's very uncommon. Wish we all could have the courage to bare our souls like you do. I learn much from you. I dare say I am a better parent to my Russian little ones because of you. In your willingness to tell it like it is, you breathe fresh air into the conversation about parenting well. As to your current pain, I can only say I am so sorry and trust it will pass. I'll be sure to say an extra prayer for you and your girls today.Heart4Russianoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-29308661.post-61424156124231940892012-02-24T12:58:22.766-05:002012-02-24T12:58:22.766-05:00Here's something hopeful for you to hear today...Here's something hopeful for you to hear today. You're not the only one...<br /><br />http://www.wnyc.org/shows/heresthething/2012/feb/13/Beth and Dave Knürdmannhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00897264825450607581noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-29308661.post-26944684873835182082012-02-24T12:42:54.377-05:002012-02-24T12:42:54.377-05:00((((((((hugs)))))))))) from across the pond. Lots....((((((((hugs)))))))))) from across the pond. Lots.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-29308661.post-83535316663165928622012-02-24T12:24:52.980-05:002012-02-24T12:24:52.980-05:00My heart breaks that yours is breaking. I met your...My heart breaks that yours is breaking. I met your brothers once, long ago. I remember them teasing you and saying something I thought was really mean, but you just laughed it off and said that was how your relationship worked with them. Ugh. Sounds like they haven't grown up much in 25 years. You know I'm not much for all the god talk, but I do think, if there is something out there it's got to acknowldge you for what you are. I've seen what you've done for others. I know through M some of the things you continue to do, and under the radar no less. When are you not there for your friends? Maybe your brothers are jealous that you're so loved? Or that you do so much for everyone? Maybe they feel ashamed for years of teasing you and they dont know how to come to terms with their own sh#t? Anyway, I'm here for you.You know that. You are a light in a very dark world, my friend. So sorry your own family can't see that.SGJ in Sunny LAnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-29308661.post-37067388228888668522012-02-24T12:09:34.445-05:002012-02-24T12:09:34.445-05:00I love your soul, Keri. I am praying for you, for ...I love your soul, Keri. I am praying for you, for your family, your kids, God to wrap His arms tangibly around you.Blessedhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09079902364989480862noreply@blogger.com